Goodbye Michael....I will always love you...

I was down to one check....One check left with Mine and Michael's names on it...I knew way before I got down to one check that it was time I did something about it...It was like, 'the end'...
I thought taking his ashes back to Indiana was my end...It took me a year after he died to do that..
There was this one last thing that needed to be done and it was difficult...No more Mr. and Mrs. for me to see...No more deposit slips to fill out showing it was 'our' bank account...
This may seem strange to some, as he has been gone for five years now but it was a very difficult step....He hadn't deposited anything in that account for all those years but it was 'ours'...'us'...When he was alive he deposited to that account....He spoiled me...I miss that...I miss him...

I had the death certificate in my purse and walked into the bank...It was difficult for me to tell the Service Rep that I needed to take my husbands name off my bank account...Seems this is something that is done all the time so she didn't act like it was any different transaction than most...
I handed her the death certificate and she proceded to type away at the keyboard....I didn't know what she was doing exactly but on a screen,I could see mine and Michael's names...She entered this and entered that and when it came to removing Michael's name from the account, it wouldn't remove... My heart was in my throat as she called her manager over there and told her what was going on...I know it was a strange thought but I was thinking maybe he didn't want his name off there...Maybe he didn't want this final goodbye because,I sure as hell didn't....

Finally,the bank manager took me over to her desk and she did the entering and deleting things that she does and his name was gone...
Just like that....The love of my life's name was off the bank account we shared so many years...This was the finish...The end of Mr. and Mrs. as I knew it...I have nothing left in this world to identify myself with Michael except a marriage license and a death certificate....

Goodbye Michael....I will ALWAYS love you...